Infatuation @ mid night

New era of ma life has just begun
I am not here to bargain!!!

New era of ma life has just begun
I am not here to bargain!!!

she calls it's infatuation
n she feels more n more frustration....
the frustration of me loving her
n a frustration of her temporary commitment...

It started for a while, with all her cute smile
this cute smile is far for 6,902 mile
which I am planning to reach far a while
the while for which I can smile
n the while which takes me out of this exile.

I am sitting here in dark without light
with only clock ticking @ 3:35am very bright!!!
Her smile is askihg me to take a flight...
but am afraid to face her as I am not ready to fight.

The taste of her lips is too toxic
as I am failed love verdict
I am not ready to end this in tragic
there is little hope for a magic....!!!

New era of ma life has just begun
I am not here to bargain!!!
New era of ma life has just begun
I am not here to bargain!!!

Whenever I think of this bargain...
my mind thinks the way things were
n the way you are...

Sometime it makes me to think how foolish I was
as I wonder what ur thinkings were....
I hope u ll watch me today if not tomorrow
N I will hope no disappointment any more...

it's just about myself and papu

With grief of heart and unclear near future…. 
I don’t know where I am heading towards, 
all the things are happening for the first time 
like mind running blank with no road ahead to walk. 

I wonder how I have just passed 1 year 
and I am not sure how will I face the coming future. 
Those days were printed in my mind like a program engraved in a microchip.
Life is not a movie wherein we can adjust the climax based on the choice of our own, 
but it’s a real life so does the incidents of our own. 

The incidents here are so real that the damage caused is irreversible. 
Glass and heart both are same it’s better to leave them as scattered 
than try to hurt yourself putting them back together.

Mine is a failed love not for the first time 
but yes again for the second time. 
It’s not my fault to love a girl who’s nowhere loves me or tries to, 
but it’s my weakness that I loved her smile… 
The smile of her face is like a diamond worth million, 

The feeling of her smile is heartbreaking 
It’s just like “jumping out of a flying plane without parachute”. 
and hoping to get a sea of love in a Thar Desert.

Today i.e 4th of July 2010, I am celebrating the anniversary of my failed love. 
The sweet anniversary! same day and the month but the difference in year. 

A year ago she was cute so now, 
She was sweet so now 
She was near but now no where… 

“Life is short make it sweet” 
but who the bloody hell wants a long life which makes us to feel seconds as hours. 
The infatuation of the one whom I loved is burning my life and let see how far it will be.